My Heart Will Sing How I Love You

My Heart Will Sing How I Love You
12-6-16

I’ve been practicing religion for too long;
Tallying up the weight of my sins
In comparison to the sins of the past –
One little lie is not as bad as what I used to do,
My sins aren’t as bad as they used to be…I’m fine –
But ‘one little lie’ cost You Your life,
‘One little lie’ made all the difference
In the weight on your shoulders –
The burden you chose to bear – when Your father had to look away
From the darkness encapsulating Your light.
My sins may have little earthly significance,
But they have heavenly consequences.

I’ve been practicing religion for far too long now,
Feeling superior to my past self because
“I don’t do that anymore,
I’m a better person now.”
But being a good person doesn’t earn me more,
Or any,
Of Your love…Your grace, mercy or forgiveness.
It just makes me feel morally superior
And blocks me;
Holds my heart in place instead of letting it be free.

I’ve been practicing religion,
But there’s a relationship waiting…
If I would only put down my standards and superiority
And pour out as much of my heart as I can –
Wait for mercy, grace, forgiveness and love to take hold –
Accept. Believe. Trust.