Ode to James

Ode to James
5-12-14

My darling boy, your momma says hello
And wonders if you do remember me.
My angel boy, ‘twas not my time to go
Though I tried to join you on your journey.
My little lad, you’re missed and you were loved,
And loved you still are though you’re far from here.
I see your face in children on the street,
And wonder why the loving God above
Chose that specific time to draw you near,
And leaving me a great wait ‘til we meet.

I dedicate this poem to you my boy,
For as of late you’ve been upon my heart.
I’ve got no doubt you are a little joy
Up there in Heaven, where we are apart.
I’m sorry for the person who I chose
To be your dad, for soon before he left
He chose to have you not there in his plans.
Forget him, my love for you daily grows
As being without you leaves me bereft
And longing just to hold your little hand.

I think of you throughout the brightest day,
I think of you throughout the darkest night.
Oh God why did it have to be this way,
Must I just give up now without a fight?
No matter where you are you are my son,
No matter where you are you are my life.
If only you would send to me a sign
That you’re an Angel and that you’re my one
And only boy, my boy who caused such strife:
But no matter where you are you are mine.